Inside the Homicidol Mind: Megumi from Zenbu Kimi no Sei Da

Friends, our anonymous benefactor has struck again, this time by providing translations for the series of five interviews with the members of Zenbu Kimi no Sei Da that were published by Natalie.mu’s PowerPush segment a little while back. They originally ran one per month; we’ll run one each day this week, starting with their putative leader, Kisaragi Megumi.

What motivates her? How does she view the other members? Taking her somewhat unique position in the group into account, what do her goals feel like in context?

You can read the whole thing (in Japanese) and use this as a guide, or you can just skip that step and enjoy the fact that somebody in Japan loves you and wants you to be happy.

A project where we interview one member of ZenKimi each month has begun. Until now, the group has been interviewed 3 times, but this time we’ll have a closer look at each members and their personalities. The first interview is with Megumi Kisaragi, representing the color red, whose interview was themed around movies.

Before becoming an idol, she was active as an actress. How does she feel about the current Zenkimi and what does she feel when she stands on the stage?

Megumi Kisaragi — In my head, everything revolves around Zenkimi.

I loved movies since a long time ago. If I had free time, I would just lock up in my room and just watch movies. I’ve watched my favorites for so many times. I think the movie I’ve watched the most is “GO” starring Yousuke Kubozuka. I am also a big fan of director Shunji Iwais works. I’ve watched his films such as “Swallowtail” and “PiCNiC” so many times.

My favorite movies deal with heavy topics. Suicide and bullying and so on. Don’t you think those types of darker works have an amount of humanity in them? PiCNiC has a mental hospital as it’s main location, which gives it a very heavy topic, but there’s also beautiful cinematography. Things like a car running over a rose and so on, i really got enchanted by that.

While rewatching my favorite movies, if there was a small scene or implication that i noticed, i would write that down. I think it’s really fun when you realize what the author meant with that. That’s why I like Japanese movies, I understand the language and you can empathize with them. I don’t really watch Western hero type of movies. Good guys beating the bad guys as the prime principle is a pretty uninteresting concept to me. If the hero is flawed, I can admit to taking a liking to them, though.

Right from the start, I liked creating stories. Before becoming an idol, I would write screenplays and so on. By watching a lot of movies and reading books I became interested in creating my own works. I think Zenkimi is also a part of my personal story. I’d like to continue weaving this story with everyone. I’d like to make the fans feel like they’re watching a movie. That’s why even as a performer on the stage, I like to be the unsung hero by continuing to think on how our story goes onward. I’d like to surprise everyone with the future turns of our story.

I don’t really believe in God. Then again, you could consider Vega and Altair as gods (laughs). I don’t like to entrust my wishes to a god, I want to make them true by myself. My wish is that Zenkimi would stay like Zenkimi is. I would like to have an effect to people that support and follow us, to become an important part of their lives.

I wanted to be surrounded by movies and books. Where there would be stories, I wanted to go there. I wanted to live in a story, so I wanted to be more involved in creative works. I would like to appear as an actress, but Zenkimi is my first priority. Our rallying call before lives is “We’ll give Zenkimi all we got!” If you say something like that, you should really believe in that call.

My favorite district in Tokyo is Shimo-Kitazawa. There’s also a small theater district here. Every time I’d have a trip to Tokyo, I’d come here to see plays. In just a few years, the feeling of the places has changed. A lot of new small shops have opened in the backstreets opening up new encounters and possibilities. I can’t really grow bored of this place.

Today I’m in a good mood since i got to eat my favorite food, gyoza, at GinTei Restaurant. I haven’t been able to eat that recently. Wouldn’t it be fun to have a Zenkimi Gyoza Festival? The Live House would start smelling like garlic after that, though (laughs).

Even though I’m an idol, I don’t feel the need to conceal the things I like. I want you all to see everything. Things like loving gyoza and garlic. I was a bit of a loner before joining Zenkimi, but after joining the group, I feel like I have become a more open person. I think I’ve changed.

In the past, I did a lot of things by my own, even traveled by myself. It’s not that I’m in pain, being by yourself feels good was what I thought. Nowadays, I’m more about being together with the other members. I’ve been recently wondering why is it so. Because you’ve made friends who have your back or something like that. Because all the members are giving their all for Zenkimi, they are trustworthy. When you’re operating alone, you can’t really trust others around you and being on your guard constantly can be a pain. I don’t feel like that anymore. I don’t hate myself for that. In the past, I couldn’t have imagined i would become a person like that.

Aza is pretty shy, right. In the beginning, she only said “Um, yes” whenever you’d ask her or talk to her. Nowadays she’s the most upbeat and outgoing one. Mashiro would have problems with expressing herself, but now she’s able to bring herself out more. Whenever I’m not around, I can always count on Mashiro to take care of things.

Gomochi is actually a pretty serious person. She has an surprisingly good amount of leadership skills. When Yotsu joined the group as a new member, she didn’t say anything at all. I wondered how we’d go on with a situation like this. Now she can talk about herself and her feelings a lot better, I think she matured a bit. I guess I look after the members with a parental eye?

If we could, I’d like to stand on the landmark stage of Budokan with the current five members. If I can make people feel something during the process of getting there, I feel like we’ve accomplished something. Recently I’ve become interested in outdoor music festivals. When we appeared at FREEDOM NAGOYA 2016, the feeling of freedom gave me energy to let out all the pent up emotions.

It wasn’t just for me, it was as all five of us were synchronized in feeling the same way. “It’s okay if we die here today” kind of feeling. Well, we talked about “if there would be one place I could die, it would be during our gig” and so on (laughs). We were covered in bruises after that gig. I didn’t even notice that it was that intense of a gig. On this wide stage with no roof, watch us. With adrenaline flowing, I wanted to show an adrenaline-fueled live.

What I’d like to be in the future … I can only think about Zenkimi now. If I had to say something, I’d like to develop as a performer. There are still gigs to be performed and I don’t feel like I’ve given my all yet. There are a lot of things to learn. I want to do all of that for Zenkimi’s sake. In my head, everything revolves around Zenkimi. That’s my everything. Everything, Everything, Everything is your fault!

Brutal.

4 thoughts on “Inside the Homicidol Mind: Megumi from Zenbu Kimi no Sei Da

  1. This is such a great interview. Heartbreaking at some points, but I feel like it makes the concept of the group so much more personal.. The parts about how the members grew is really my favourite.

    • I’m always left with this feeling that IRL Megumi is a really interesting person. Our friend described her road into the company and management as one of deep commitment, and that she works hard to make it work. Her public face as nominal leader of this bunch of madness is what we’ve seen here and in some past stuff, but I’d really like to know her unfiltered feelings about how a) The Incident all went down, and b) where they can really go.

      Like, both of the Codomomental groups exist pretty far from the rest of the idolverse; they don’t always just do one-mans, but they do a lot of one-mans and in-store stuff as opposed to getting into the regular performance rotations. I think iDL might be the one time that they and Tsurezure have really rubbed shoulders with other notable groups.

      So what does a Megumi, a player-manager if there’s ever been one, think of that? It must be strategic, like this is the company’s orientation, and it’s atypical enough to make me think that they have an almost ideological or philosophical basis for it.

      Anyway, yeah, I’d love to chat with her, person-to-person, no idolness involved.

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